summertime March 31, 2009

and the living is easy.  Not seen any fish jumping yet though.  And the chances of the cotton being high are slim to none, I would say.  However, at the time of writing – 7.44, is is still not really dark.  This means that it is now feasible to go running outside after work.  As you know, what is feasible and what actually happens have only a very distant relationship.  But I like the possibility.  And of course, when it isn’t all dark and rainy and depressing outside, you are just more motivated generally.

I went on a training course today about confidence and so I am in kind of a self-aware, introspective mood.  (Jen will like this).  Here is what my training course has taught me about this running project:

1) I am deathly afraid of failing at anything

2) More specifically, I am afraid of other people thinking I am a failure/I am weak

3) This is basically a good thing, because it makes me a very determined person

4) But the downside is that I am much too hard on myself and do stuff even when it genuinely hurts too much

I guess any of you could have told me that though.

Jordanna says my arms are very good and my legs are ok, but my core is very weak. I guess this is where I store my wispas.  So I can’t do things like lifting the swiss ball with my feet without hurting my back quite a lot.  We are going to work on that.  And then I will be a running machine.  Maybe.

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